What a Difference a Week Makes…..

Sorry for the delay in posting.  After my last appointment I had every intention of writing about it, but then the tragedy in Charleston happened and my mind immediately went to trying to comprehend how something so tragic could have happened.  Continued prayers for the family of the 9 victims, they were killed in that church, and then went to be with God.  He is protecting them now.

I had the “follow-up to the follow-up” appointment today.  After last week’s appointment when my doctor didn’t think I would need the radioactive iodine (RAI) treatment, however he did let me know he would have to consult with the medical team. I should have known not to get too happy, just saying!!

I was literally so excited because I thought I was almost at the end of the “major” treatment and would only need to make sure the thyroid hormone was the right amount for me, and then start working out again, because I am been eating entirely too much!!  I had a list of questions and one was can I have a glass of wine!!    FYI, the answer was yes!!

To be honest I actually feel like the “everything that can go wrong, that wasn’t supposed to” type of patient, seriously I do!!

  • When initially found to have an enlarged thyroid my doctor had no idea to suspect I had thyroid cancer
  • My initial surgeon had no idea to suspect he would find cancer, hell the biopsy was benign
  • My 2nd surgeon had no idea I would need the RAI treatment, my surgery looked to have gotten all of the cancer

Anyway today I was told I would need RAI, and I have to be honest I don’t want to do it.

  • I don’t want to go to another doctor – I now have to see an endocrinologist, at least he’s in the same building as my surgeon and my surgeon says he’s great, so that some peace of mind!
  • I don’t want to have to worry about when I can do this so I don’t miss any more work after missing days off work for 2 surgeries in 2 months – I have only been at this job 5 months!
  • I don’t want to have to worry about when I will do the treatment so that I won’t be around people for a few days – y’all know I like to be around people!
  • I don’t want to have to worry about what to do with my dogs for the few days I am radioactive – I have to protect my babies, they are old and can’t be exposed to all this!
  • I don’t want to have to worry about long term effects of this – didn’t I tell myself to stay off the internet because you will see that this treatment could cause you to develop other cancers later
  • I just don’t want to deal with this anymore – can you tell I am just ready for this to be OVER!

But I guess if I look at the glass half full, I am thankful to have all of these to even worry!!  I can be treated, there are many out there with various forms of cancer that can’t, so I need to be thankful, and trust me I am.  There is a light at the end of this tunnel and I can see it, I really can.  But I know you can tell I am very frustrated.

I have to wrap this by saying, yes I am frustrated, and hate that I have to go through all of this, but God doesn’t make any mistakes and He knows I can handle this.  He prepared me, and now I have to realize it’s time for me to stop crying and keep it moving!!

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